The day will come when you realize that she is no longer a choice you have to make because she eventually made up her mind on someone who chose her too.
You meet and she won’t notice you because she’s staring at someone and laughing harder than you’ve ever seen her.
She will look and sound familiar, but if you take a closer look you will see how much something has changed about her.
What has changed is the way she looked at you. She always looked at you with admiring eyes, but instead, he began to look at herself that way. The way she built you up and admired you, you realize that someone who you thought wasn’t confident and needed you no longer does that.
You will find that she looks even prettier than when you get closer from a distance. There is something about not knowing someone.
Then you will realize what you miss about her.
Every conversation in which she talked about you.
Any message that you knew for sure would be answered quickly.
Every message you ignored and every voice message you hated when it left.
You will find yourself looking at pictures that you didn’t want to take in the first place, but she insisted on taking them. You never thought that looking back at those moments and memories would hurt so much.
You will miss the little details that she let you know about and how she was really a key figure in your life.
You miss the news that came up just because she saw something and thought of you.
Conversations where she just wanted to know how you were doing.
Whenever she went away, she said that she loved you, kissed you on the cheek, and said that you should come home safely.
Those moments when you miss her are going to hit you as you realize that there aren’t many people like her who really care. And maybe it was annoying at times, but there wasn’t anyone with better intentions. There is no one who would do anything you ask for.
You realize what really mattered was what you thought was desperation.
You realize that when she gave something to someone who didn’t appreciate it, she didn’t seem to have trust.
Every time you thought she was different, you realize what made her so special.
You will regret that you never told her all of these things, appreciated her, or thanked her.
You miss someone who never stopped trying with you. Until she had to, because, despite all her best efforts, she learned that it wasn’t her who wasn’t enough, it was you.
It’s the nights when you stay up and you remember when you texted her and even at inconvenient times she always took the time to talk to you.
All the times you canceled and all she replied, “okay, see you soon” was.
You will miss this person who was always by your side and wanted the best for you. Over time, she learned that she would never be.
You remember how much time, emotions, and energy she invested in you, and all you left her was uncertainty and doubt.
Her absence and silence will make you realize how much you must have hurt her. You look at your phone and want to text her and ask how she is, but you can’t even figure out how to say hello.
And it’s not like you did anything wrong. But you also didn’t do anything right to keep her staying.
That’s the thing about good people who stay as long as they can believe in you. But you can’t keep her waiting forever. She left because she had to. Because she couldn’t keep trying and could only try to get hurt.
She didn’t mean to be wrong about you. And she hated it because she thought you were different.
She realized that she couldn’t be the only one trying.
You keep going with every step and watch her do it. It could be a news feed or a snap story. Maybe you know she moved on because it almost looked like, in a way, she was gone. She doesn’t even bother showing off her new relationship because she’s keeping it to herself.
You wonder what’s going on, but you can’t even find the words to ask with.
She will meet someone who doesn’t have to lose her to realize that she is someone of value and someone who deserves love and attention.
You will see her and she will look at you smiling, maybe even hug you like she used to do. But everything about it will feel uncomfortable because it will be a moment before you close both eyes and realize that it shouldn’t end like this.
All these times you used her and she didn’t leave you because she was weak, but she knew that was you and not her.
You will miss the words that she said so carelessly that told you exactly how you felt and what actions went with it.