As far back as I can remember, I always thought there was somewhere my other half. A person who is destined to spend his life with me and who is destined to be mine.
A man who will save me and let me save him. A man who will complete me and give me everything I did not even know I was missing. A man who will love me whatever happens and who will appreciate my unconditional love.
I knew there was somewhere my Mr. Perfect, Prince Charming. And I did not expect it to be flawless – I wanted our love to be perfect and both of us imperfect for each other.
This man would never leave me and love me, no matter what. At the same time, he would never question my love for him.
And he would have no reason to do it. He would know that I will love him at his best and at his worst, without exception.
He would know that I have waited for him all my life and he would know how grateful I am for meeting him.
We would both be putting the same effort into the relationship and we would do everything to make it work.
I thought this person would be my soul mate and I was sure that this man would come into my life.
And when I met you, I was sure you were that man. When we started dating, you seemed to have all these qualities.
It was not your appearance or your money, it was just the way you treated me. I did not expect you to treat me like a princess, but that’s exactly what you made me feel.
I felt appreciated, respected, loved and desired and it was what I needed most.
So I was sure you were my soul mate, that you were the man I had been waiting for so long.
And I was so happy that you finally came into my life, that I did not even realize you were changing over time.
I did not realize you pretended to be that perfect man just to make sure I got addicted.
And even when I started to notice, I refused to see the real you. Even when I saw that you took me for granted, and that your love for me faded, I tried to justify myself and find you an apology.
I wanted to believe so much in our fairy tale that I was not ready to leave anything or anyone to destroy that image of you I had in mind. Even if it was you who showed me the opposite.
And then one day, you left me for another woman. Just like that, you left my life. You left our lives, everything we had planned and dreamed together. You left as if I represented nothing for you and as if you had never loved me.
And I guess you never really liked me. I guess you only pretended to be the man I wanted to have me completely, and to be sure that I will love you like no one else.
That’s all you ever wanted from me and once you got it, you were ready to go.
When you left, I was devastated. You broke my heart and broke all my hopes and dreams.
You killed the innocent girl in me who believed in love and fairy tales and you made me face real life.
You made me face pain and disappointment. I saw you as the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life and it took me a long time to realize that it was not going to happen.
It took me a long time to pick up the pieces of my heart and you never asked yourself how I was going and if I was going to recover from what you did to me.
But I will not tell you about everything I’ve been through since you left. Because I’m better now.
Yes, you killed the person I was before you came into my life, and for a moment I did not like the woman you made me become.
But slowly, I am learning to love this new person that I have become. Because now, I am stronger than I could ever imagine.
I no longer believe in fairy tales and I know that sometimes love is not enough, but you have not managed to kill my desire to live and that’s the most important thing.
I’m only going to tell you that I forgave you. Not only that, but I’m also grateful for everything you did to me.
Because without you, I would never have become the strong, powerful and independent woman I am now. I would never have realized that not everyone deserves my love and trust.
I would never have understood that I do not need a man to complete me and that I am more than sufficient by myself.
And I would never have realized that I must respect and love myself before I respect and love anyone else.
Yes, you were my worst lesson to learn, but I had to confuse a soul mate with a lesson to be able to understand all these things.