Thank you for leaving me.

I do not know how long I hated you, how long I wanted to destroy you, the way you destroyed me. But I’m finally over it, I’m finally over you. So I take this opportunity to thank you. Thanks for being the hardest lesson I’ve ever learned.

Thank you for treating me the way you did. Thank you for never supporting me, for making me feel that I was not good enough. Because, you know, now I know what I’m worth. Now I know that I deserve to be loved, that I deserve to be held and appreciated.

I deserve someone who goes out with me for the rest of our lives just because he wants it. I deserve someone who sees me the way I am and still loves me. Because I spent two years with you to realize that I’m perfect the way I am. That I do not have to change for anyone.

Thank you for not loving me.

The worst thing I ever did was to implore you to love me. I tried so hard to be perfect for you, I tried so hard to be something I was not, hoping you might love me then. I always tried a little more, hoping to be good enough for you one day.

But I never was. And when you left, I did not remember who I was. Well, thank you for breaking me up, because I had a chance to rebuild myself. I got the chance to love each of these pieces and glue them back together the way I wanted them to.

Thank you for cheating on me. More than once. Because now I know it was never my fault. Now I know that you have never been interested in me, just because you have someone to strengthen your ego. And do you know what the saddest thing about it is? I was ready to be your life-long ego booster, I was ready to forgive you for cheating on me. But now I know better.

Now I know what true love looks like, I know how devotion looks like. Now I know that what we had was only a one-sided relationship.

Thank you for leaving me.

Thank you for leaving me when I needed you the most. Because now I know how to take care of myself. Now I know how to love myself the way you never knew. Now I know that I was not loveless, it was you who was unable to love.

Well, thank you for leaving me because it saved my life. It gave me a new chance to live. It gave me a fresh start with a new, better and stronger self. Which loves itself, which does not need a man to feel loved.

Thank you for leaving me, because I can finally look back and see how much I’ve changed. See how the desperate little girl grows up to this amazing and wild woman. A woman who is no longer ashamed because she lived in a toxic relationship.

A woman who no longer blames herself for giving you everything she had. Because I know now that it was never my fault. Now I know that you were a lesson I needed to learn to love myself to see what true love really is.

And what we had was never love. It was just another story of a poisonous love – but it has a happy ending. You see, you may have destroyed me, but I’m still standing. I’m still breathing and my heart is beating. I still love. But this time also myself.

 

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