It’s me who finally gives up on you
I wonder why it is so easy for you to make promises while I stay and watch you break them. I wonder why it is easy for you to distort the truths into lies while I stay and believe you.
I wonder why it is so easy for you to burn the bridge while I patiently build it so we can move forward.
And I wonder why it is so easy for you to change and turn you into the coldest ice cream while I stay and give you all the warmth of my love.
I stayed. I always forgive because I want things to work out for both of us, no matter how messy things are.
I stay so long because I still believe in “us” together. I’m holding out longer than I should because I still wish that one-day things could really change. I stand by you and keep you alive with my love in the midst of turbulence. I trusted you for so long only to find out that you were just a chauvinist.
You taught me to break the promises I wanted to keep.
You made me realize that love is no longer there. You made me believe that your love is only temporary madness. It erupts like a volcano, then it sinks and burns in ashes.
You made me realize that spending time with someone who makes me question everything doesn’t mean being patient – it’s a waste of time.
And here I am and finally place myself above you. Here I am finally in love with a life without you. Here I am, finally giving up on you.
I’m letting you go because you made it clear to me that I deserve the best and that I deserve someone who plans a future with me. I let you go because I’m tired of being your eventuality and your temporary choice.
I’m done bending over to make you happy and I’m tired of giving my friends headaches over my endless drama with you.
I want you to know that this is the end of it, that for you I am a useful lover and the instrument of your selfishness.
I want to let you know that I’m not giving you another chance. I will only give it to someone who makes an effort and is willing to give me the love I deserve.
I want you to know that you are no longer the place I call my home or my own.
I now realize that I am no longer in your way because you are no longer worth my time.
I want you to know that I will no longer fight for a place in your heart.
I let you know that I no longer look back and think of you lovingly.
I am looking for the distance to you and that means I am not looking forward to the next time to meet you.
I say goodbye to you. And when I say that, I really mean that this is my way and yours is another. Our paths will never cross again.
I forgive you for not caring about the love that I can no longer save now. And now I decide to start over with less of you and more of me.